At Sunrise…

Watching the sunrise today, I’m missing you deeply.

I feel it everywhere. In my gut, in my heart, in my bones, down into the depth of my being.

Where does the soul go? I saw it leave you, or what I remember you to be.

Wherever you are, you are a part of me. I am a part of you. I see it in my face.

“You look like me,” you said, as you looked back at me in the mirror.

“It feels good,” you said, when I held your hand.

When it became so difficult for you to speak, I heard you say, I know you said, “I love you.”

When it took all your effort to open your eyes, I saw you, for just a brief second, smile at me.

As the rest of the world sleeps, when only the two of us and the birds are awake, maybe we are together.

Or maybe I am alone now.

But as I sit here, with the morning sun cresting just above the trees,

I hope I am still sitting with you, and that you are still by my side.

As tears stream down my face, I saw a blue heron fly over the pond this morning.

Was that you?

Forever in my heart,
Yuan Chun Eugene Chang, 1922-2020

3 Replies to “At Sunrise…”

  1. Cara,
    Your words bring tears to my eyes because you speak from the deep grief and sorrow of loosing a parent. It is so painful. May your heart get lighter as the days pass. His obituary was unbelievable … a brilliant, motivated man. May you find peace in the days ahead and be blessed with tears of all the memories.

  2. I’m crying too, I’m so sorry to hear of his passing, such an accomplished man and such a beautiful family he has left behind. Know that you are in my thoughts as you navigate the days ahead.
    – LeAnn

  3. I am so sorry to hear about your Dad’s passing. What a wonderful man and family he created! Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family Cara.

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