At Sunrise…

Watching the sunrise today, I’m missing you deeply.

I feel it everywhere. In my gut, in my heart, in my bones, down into the depth of my being.

Where does the soul go? I saw it leave you, or what I remember you to be.

Wherever you are, you are a part of me. I am a part of you. I see it in my face.

“You look like me,” you said, as you looked back at me in the mirror.

“It feels good,” you said, when I held your hand.

When it became so difficult for you to speak, I heard you say, I know you said, “I love you.”

When it took all your effort to open your eyes, I saw you, for just a brief second, smile at me.

As the rest of the world sleeps, when only the two of us and the birds are awake, maybe we are together.

Or maybe I am alone now.

But as I sit here, with the morning sun cresting just above the trees,

I hope I am still sitting with you, and that you are still by my side.

As tears stream down my face, I saw a blue heron fly over the pond this morning.

Was that you?

Forever in my heart,
Yuan Chun Eugene Chang, 1922-2020

3 Replies to “At Sunrise…”

  1. Cara,
    Your words bring tears to my eyes because you speak from the deep grief and sorrow of loosing a parent. It is so painful. May your heart get lighter as the days pass. His obituary was unbelievable … a brilliant, motivated man. May you find peace in the days ahead and be blessed with tears of all the memories.
    ❤️Claire

  2. I’m crying too, I’m so sorry to hear of his passing, such an accomplished man and such a beautiful family he has left behind. Know that you are in my thoughts as you navigate the days ahead.
    – LeAnn

  3. I am so sorry to hear about your Dad’s passing. What a wonderful man and family he created! Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family Cara.

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